A Life of True Love

December 15, 2010

Being a soldier of the Lord I have been in battle many times. I’ve fought for many things; time being a great war of mine. Recently, however, I’ve slipped into the battle of heart.

As I write to each of you I realize I have kept who I am from you. I speak on love and yet I give you pieces of it. I know this because I have spoken on love in itself without showing you the life behind it, and the truth is love is alive, and it’s evident – it’s Jesus. There’s so much more to this love that only sharing a life could explain; this is what Jesus did, and if I am to show you the love of Christ in me, then I am to show you my life, and if I am to show you the evidence of True Love, then I am to show you the life of True Love.

A question I’ve been asking myself lately… Who am I?

Who are you?


Christian soldier


The Cup of Salvation

October 28, 2010

What shall I render to the LORD for all his benefits to me?

I will lift up the cup of salvation and call on the name of the LORD, I will pay my vows to the LORD in the presence of all his people.‘ – Psalm 116:12-14

God is good! More than that he is good to us. His goodness is incomparable and indescribable, because he defines what is good. We don’t define God as good but rather what is good is defined by who God is. God is good. He is the very essence of goodness and ‘apart from [him] [we] have no good thing. (Ps. 16:2)

I encourage you to go read the whole of Psalm 116, it really sums up well God’s heart for us and even guides us in our response to the great love of this good God. I want to focus on these 3 verses in addition to highlighting some others preceding them. The first (v. 12) asks the very important question, ‘What shall I render to the LORD for all his benefits to me?‘ What do we give to this God who has given to us so much? What could we possibly offer to this awesome God?

First lets look at what the Psalm says leading up to this question.

The snares of death encompassed me‘ (v. 3) This is where we were before God intervened. Because of our sin and our human nature we were sentenced to eternal death. We were separated from God and this is where we justly belong and what we rightly deserve.

But, ‘Gracious is the LORD, and righteous; our God is merciful.‘ (v. 5) God is so full of grace and mercy that he desires that we be forgiven and spend eternity with him. However, he is also righteous which is why he sent his son Jesus to justify us and pay our death penalty.

For you have delivered my soul from death,… I will walk before the LORD in the land of the living.‘ (v. 8a, 9) Jesus has set us free and death has lost it’s sting (1 Cor. 15:55-57), we have victory through Christ and have been rescued from darkness to walk with God in the land of the living.

So again we come back to this question, what could we possibly do in response to this incredible goodness God has so lovingly lavished on us?

I will lift up the cup of salvation and call on the name of the LORD, I will pay my vows to the LORD in the presence of all his people.‘ (v. 13-14)

Firstly we lift up the cup of salvation that has been given to us. We have been saved and now we can drink from the living water. However, to lift up our cup is also to propose a toast. We toast to the greatness of our God, thanking him for every sip as we recall the cost of our salvation and the boundless love behind it. We toast to others and invite them to ‘taste and see that the LORD is good‘ (Ps. 34:8).

Secondly we call on his name because he loves to hear his people. We call on him in times of trouble, in times of grief, in times of need, but most of all we call on him at all other times. Let not our pain be all that drives us to him but also our joy.

Lastly we pay our vows to the LORD. This is not driven by a desire to repay God for what he’s done, for that would be insanity at it’s worst. We simply can’t afford it. We pay our vows as a loving response to what God has given us. Our love for God drives us to serve in his church and worship with his people. We offer up our lives to him because they aren’t ours anyway.

Our lives have nothing to do with us and everything to do with Jesus.

The Lord’s Servant


October 7, 2010

“Can a women forget her nursing child, that she should have no compassion on the son of her womb? Even these may forget, yet I will not forget you. Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are continually before me.” – Isaiah 49:15-16

Over the past few weeks I have been reading and thinking about that piece of Scripture. It has really spoken to me and has been an encouragement to myself and those I’ve shared it with. I hope it serves as an encouragement to all who read it.
The context of this Scripture shows the people of Israel, God’s chosen people, as feeling abandoned by God. They no longer felt like his people whom he loved and no longer believed that he would come through for them. They lost all trust in their God and came to the conclusion that God had forsaken and forgotten them.
God responded to this by first asking a simple question: ‘Can a women forget her nursing child, that she should have no compassion on the son of her womb?‘ Is it possible (not probable) for a women to forget the child she is breastfeeding, and have no compassion for her own child? A mother and her child share a special bond. Most mothers have an incredible attachment and sense of love and protection over their children.
However God knows that even though it’s not likely, it is possible. We all know this saddening fact. The Bible itself tells of mothers who boiled their own children, and in these present times we are all too familiar with children who have been abandoned, abused, neglected, and slaughtered. God knew that this was a horrifying truth. But God carried on to say that though the strong bond that a mother has for her child can be corrupted and broken, his bond of love for us can’t. That though they may forget their children, he won’t forget his.
God carries on saying, ‘Behold, I have engraved you on the palms of my hands; your walls are continually before me.‘ God speaks through the prophet Isaiah and looks forward to when Jesus would be nailed to the cross driven by his love for us. He says look and see the scars on my hands that serve as a reminder of my love for you. See that you are forever engraved on my palms.
The walls refer to our lives that are continually before God. He is watching over us always, and if he ever did take his eyes off us for a moment he’d see the scars on the palms of Christ Jesus that serve as a reminder to God, Satan, angels, demon, and ourselves that God has never forsaken nor forgotten us. And he never will.
We are the apple of his eye.
The Lord’s Servant

The Stuff We’re Made Of

August 23, 2010

“Look at you, you fat, ugly, unworthy creature. Look at your hair, your nose – could their be anything more sickening? Your smile, your wrinkles – what is wrong with you?”

Every day’s another day just like this. We wake up each morning to look into the mirror of  shame, and disgust . “You trash”, it subconsciously echoes.

What’s up with you? Where’d your roots go? What did God make you? What kind of a God do you serve?

Every morning’s another slump. Another day of stress and disappointment. Another day of failure.  Life has been sucked dry – each morning’s just another day living. Woohoo?

We’re told we ought to be this way and that , but where’s their point – why ought we to be what they expect of us?

We’re pushed into conforming and creativity is thrown out the window of the one hundredth floor to die at the hand of concrete.

There are so few days we wake up in the morning to say, “I’m so happy I look this way, and I’m so happy I don’t fit in”.

What are we all doing with our lives? Every day comes, and then it’s gone. You can never ever get it back. Every breathe you take is gone, you can never ever get it back. Every word you say, be it to yourself or others, it’s gone; you can never ever get it back. Every move you make; it’s gone. Man is slowly falling into pointless wandering, and, each step we take, we can never ever get it back.

There are so many things we go on and on about; things that don’t even matter.

Maybe you weigh a million pounds, or your nose forms the shape of a light bulb, or you can’t smile because then you’d get too many wrinkles, or you’re a stick man, or the people you’re around dress to the nine when they go to sleep and you got nothing but slacks for the daytime – does it matter?

What are you aiming for?

If you really want to know if any of that truly matters, you need to go back to where it all began in the first place, because Genesis 1:31a clearly states “Then God saw everything that He had made, and indeed it was very good”. He didn’t say He made you okay, and He didn’t say He made you good; He said He made you VERY good – see that? Right there? God used an adjective to explain how good you are!

So to those who don’t like their bodies – YOU’RE BEAUTIFUL! And to those who think their noses are too big or too small – YOU’RE GORGEOUS! And to those whom society tries to tag – YOU’RE AWESOME! And to those who stand in front of the mirror trying to convince themselves of their unworthiness – YOU’RE IDIOTS! Because you can’t see how absolutely breath taking you truly are.

God don’t care what you look like, where you come from, who you’ve been with, or what you’ve done. He only cares about YOU. Who YOU are, and where YOU’RE going. Because He just wants you to be with Him; so that He can draw you into His arms and hold you.

Take the person you love the most, and times that by a quadrillion. Now imagine never being with that person or ever hearing from that person again.  Now go stand in front of the mirror, and the next time you try to bring yourself down – realize, you’re pushing God away, and He loves you more than a quadrillion times more than the person you love the most in this entire universe.

Now start telling yourself the truth…


Christian soldier

Taking over the world

March 19, 2009

You know I love these animated movies and TV shows; shows like Ice Age, The Bee Movie, The Lion King, Mickey Mouse & Friends, Meet the Robinsons! I just find them so innocent and well done! They’re almost always pleasant to watch!

But no matter what type of movie or TV show I’m watching, my favorite character strangely enough, is always the bad guy! Most take to Super Man and Bat Man, or the main character of the film or show, but not me! Without the bad guy there would be no production what so ever in my eyes!

Yes I clearly watch too much TV, and yes it’s mad the way I think. But I’m sure already you’ve managed to figure out the reason as to why. I could give you many more reasons; to those who know me I appear to always be full and plump with opinions and theories! But there’s one main reason I’d like to point out about my favorite character in order to use as an example in sharing a lesson I learnt just last week.

Have you ever noticed how evil villains NEVER win? No matter how hard or how long they try, NEVER do they manage to accomplish or succeed in that which they attempt.

Have you ever wondered what keeps them going? How do they, after being beaten to a pulp by the hero of the story, come back just as, if not more, determined to try once again?

Who’s the nut that encourages them to take over the world!?

Have you ever noticed how many things we attempt to do in our own lives that we so often give up on?

As Christians, much like the evil villain of every story, we ought to be “taking over the world!” We need God in our work places, in our schools, in our homes, and so desperately in the core of our lives. But how does He get there? Well firstly He’s got to get into us, yes; but how does He get into us? If God is our Saviour, our Super Hero, should we not just call on him like the citizens of Small Ville do to Super Man when they need Him? And God isn’t at all like Super Man; there’s no way a bad guy can trick Him into being caught at a crossroad in life. God’s a little smarter than Super Man and a lot more buff! Then when Christ is in us, He sticks with us. He’s always right there with us!  Imagine God right there in our work places, in our schools, and in our homes. Right there, forever present…

And yeah, “taking over the world” isn’t exactly a small thing. It’s not at all as simple as one makes out, and it never works out the way it’s supposed to. But then have a look at Pinky & The Brain. They’re only two, teeny, tiny little lab rats. But each day they get up, they’re trying to conquer the entire world. They fail many, many times; and they get locked up in a cage every single night. Note that the guy doing tests on them doesn’t exactly give them an encouraging word. Yet we try, we fail, and we give up. We may be small, we may have people on all sides yelling at us, “You’re useless”, “You’re worthless”, “You’ll never learn that,” or “You’ll never be able to do this”. But God is HUGE, and He’s cheering you on to victory.

Just last week I was faced with giving up on something I truly believed in. I had a good reason to do so as well as many who thought, and still do think, I should. But I made the choice to keep trying. So far it has bared no fruit. But with prayer and faith, I know in due time I shall reap that which I’ve done my best at. Maybe it won’t be what I expected. But then again I’ll never know what it could have been if I’d given up. Maybe, just maybe, it’ll be more than I expect.

So with that said, I make one last statement…

For Goodness sake man! Start practicing your evil laugh!

With Love,

Christian soldier

 Stepping back into the past, I remember when I was a little girl and I used to go to Sunday school. I always felt like everything the teacher had to say was just a repeat of everything I already knew. ‘”Love God”, okay I know that. “Obey God”, okay I know that as well. “Love and obey your parents”, okay, I know that as well!’ Like most of us do at such a young age, I used to go to church just to see my friends. But if anyone ever asked me why I went to church, I’d give the usual accurate answer that every Christian uses, “To learn about God”. Oh, it’s so easy to fake Christianity! All one has to do is be polite to everyone, smile, and learn all the right answers! Simple!

 I wouldn’t say I was a fake Christian though, no, no! Just a young child that had not yet comprehended what it actually “meant” to be a Christian. 

 Looking back now, I wonder what I would have heard if I’d perhaps listened to the teacher a little harder…

 But you know, I’ve lived on this earth for such a small amount of time. Yet sometimes I feel as if I’ve been here for thousands of years. Sometimes I wonder if the years that have gone by I could have done more with, could’ve made a better impact, could’ve done something bigger. I often have to remind myself that after giving my life to Christ my time became His, and God does not waste His time. Each moment I’ve lived through has been exactly what it was supposed to be, no more, no less.

 Now, I could share with each of you what I believe being a Christian means. But I’m not going to do that this time. Over the years I’ve learnt a valuable lesson in which thinking for one’s self is good, very good!

 So I’ll leave you with the thought. Tell me, what do you think it means to be a Christian? Just to obey and love God?

 Get’s one thinking, doesn’t it?

With Love,

Christian soldier

The Thrill in 2009

January 2, 2009

There’s just something so exciting about a new year! The thrill of not knowing what is to come, the hope in what you expect to happen, the joy of a fresh start! I could go on forever talking about all the anticipated atmosphere that follows a new year! But what good would that be?

Two things I love about a new year; one is how we take the time to go over the year that’s past. To have a look and see how we’ve changed, to see how everything’s so different. How we take the time to go over the things we’ve done, the experiences we’ve had, the people we’ve met. How we’ve grown, and how (for some of us) we’ve shrunk. How we think about the places we’ve been; how far we’ve come from where we were; and I have to confess, after going over all that, there’s clear evidence that this new year is going to be the same in the way that huge things are going to happen, and everything’s going to change, and I began to fear the new year because of that fact.

 For some of us we’ve only just settled into the place we are now. For others, we just don’t like change. But change is happening all around us all the time, and whether we like that which has changed or not, change is a good thing; and much like time change cannot be controlled, it cannot be stopped, we cannot avoid it. Perhaps that is why so often we make time, and change our worst enemy. Because as human beings we just love being in control; don’t we?

 But I’m not scared anymore. I may not know what’s in store for me this year, I may not be able to control it. But I know that like the year that I’ve been through, no matter what happens, no matter what change takes place in my life; good or bad. I know that something amazing is going to come out of this year! Because time is not mine, it’s Christ’s, and Christ does not waste time.

 The second thing I love about a new year is how everyone makes such great plans! Quite often, all through the year we’re too scared to make big plans like we do at new years. So often this is because we’re too afraid in case we fail. But when new year comes along people set goals, big goals! And they go for it! They don’t let anything hold them back! But it’s sad to see people give up on those plans once the excitement of new year’s is gone.

 I know this is a little bit late, but I want to challenge you this year; All over the world billions of people are getting all excited about New Years, But what about every single day? Every single day we wake up to a new dawn, a new start. Should not every single day then be just as exciting as new years!? Let’s wake up every single day in 2009 full of excitement! Full of joy! And full of hope! Let us wake up every morning to a new generation; a generation that’s different! A generation that screams Christ’s name! Because we’ve found the ONLY Love worth living for!

 And I challenge you this year; to set goals! And go for them without anything holding you back!

 Because no matter how young, or how old you are. If you’re living for Christ, every day is just that exciting. Because every day, although you may not always see it, every day God’s going to use “you” in incredible, indescribable ways.

 So from each and everyone of us here at Searching for Love? we wish you a Happy New Year!

With Love, (as forever it shall be)

Christian soldier